i’m nervous

ok, it’s the first day of school today, or at least registration and I’m nervous! so nervous i woke up at 4:30 this morning . why am i nervous? well for one I have 5 classes this qtr which is bound to make me at least half-crazy. from what I hear they are pretty heavy classes, so I’m somewhat excited about that because I need better work in my portfolio, so maybe it’s a good thing

the other reason is because I’ve really come to the realization that I’m a chronic procrastinator… i mean real bad… i’ve been sitting on 3 freelance projects for the past few days and I’ve done everything BUT touch them! and they are not even that intense!!! a couple involve logos which have been my nemesis lately, but overall, they are fun projects and i’ve just been too lazy to even care… OH and on top of that, I still have one more project due from last qtr which is keeping me in the wonderful Incomplete status…. AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

so i’m just venting because this morning I think I almost had a PANIC ATTACK! So I went downstairs and worked it off since I just verified yesterday (on my new scale) that I have officially gained 30 lbs since starting school last year… WTF! so for the past two weeks, I’ve started my personal Jenny Weight Nutri Watchers Craig System and so far so good… which leads me to believe that I’ve actually gained 35 lbs, but maybe lost a couple since starting my mission.

and since i’m being so open about my weight, why not log it LIVE!!! here are the numbers for I’m Bringing Sexy Back – Day 1:

weight: 190.2lbs (ok, i know that sounds large, but on me it doesn’t look THAT bad… still not a good thing, i like being round 150)

body fat%: 39.2% (that’s a no no… i used to have 11% body fat, we need to work on that!)

water weight: 44% (huh? i can’t possibly have that much WATER in me!)

so those are the numbers… my goal is to weigh myself every week to check my progress… the goal numbers in 3 mos: 170lbs, 20% fat, 20% water. i think it’s doable

SO ANYWAY! that’s it… i’m about to start this work again before registration because even in writing this blog, i’m procrastinating see how that works? oh and on a side note, my prayers go out to the LeVert family. The R&B singer Gerald LeVert passed away only a year and a half ago and news just came this morning that his brother and sometimes singing partner, Sean passed away this morning. big loss and very sad. So prayers out to them.